Category: Nepali Poems

goodbye

the murukkus come between us
no smile’s as priceless as yours
the idlis come between us
no walk’s as graceful as yours

it’s not just work for me baby
but also no play at the end of the day
and that’s been getting the better of me lately
hence
had it not been for your sight
10 pm would’ve always been the end of my night

time waits for no one
or so they say
i don’t really know about that
because
even though i can’t pull a rabbit out of my hat
i know for a fact
that
come whatever may
they can never ever say
that 10 pm for the bohta
isn’t here to stay

i’ve never been on a bullet train
but
i must confess
that
my life would definitely not have been in vain
were i only to see you
everyday
wrap my order of dosa, ever so carefully
with a smile
that will be forever missed
in Kathmandu’s narrowest, but nicest, little galli

so
until (if ever) we meet again
here’s a goodbye from
well, just another ..
i could tell by the eyes that follow you
so as to cause you to bother
i will take the food, however
and not cause too much chatter
in a language that’s kinda diffcult for me
to decipher

thanks
for i really have to eat tonight (s t a r v i n g)
just so that i can query my mind efficiently tomorrow
for the invaluable content it has captured today
in the beauty of your smile
..
among maybe other details.

one

don’t blame me for dreaming
seeing as i see
things for what they cannot be
don’t shoot me for saying
writing as i read
words for what they cannot mean
don’t bar me for trying
this time as i feel
the ticks by which it turns the wheel
the love for which it gets to kneel
the life for which it makes the kill
-
so don’t hate me for feeling
these beats as i play
songs for what they cannot sway
the shades
the shades of color.

Real?

i’m getting a little high on dreams
getting a little low on life
don’t tell me how to sort this through
i’ve got the homeless reminding me
to mind my own darn strife

i’m the bearded Baba
who sins everyday in Pashupati
i’m the wondernuts statue
that flashes before reality
toss me some real shit
got enough of my own damn lies

i stink up the Bagmati
on His birthday, i take God for a joyride
to the river Seti
i need the exotica of my own trunk for a nose
to get through this lifeless burning
don’t you dare get close
unless you wanna get in with the esoteric mourning

all’s you really got to do is get across
you see them – the living, wailing lot
watched silently by the countless carvings’ apotheoses
-
ah if only the Latter could breathe
i’d give it a try and get off a shot
yeah to find out for real
i’d give it all i’ve got

did i say it already?

i’m getting a little high on dreams
getting a little low on life
don’t tell me how to sort this through
i’ve got the homeless reminding me
to mind my own darn strife.

Icicles

got a fly on my lcd
and i’m inside
everytime it lands
i feel like a story is lost
i’m the lines that you read
your visage reminds me of ..
of the color of blood tainted by snow
my remaining senses have an abstract austerity
just like an online divorce
machines machines all over
someone laugh me an emotion

do what you write
wrong you may be
even the soon to be death-pilled is managing a gleam
hint for 11:59 pm
straight ahead to the dance floor, for you
the final breath, for her
you know either way
the equation will still balance
so don’t you worry now
just
let it roll and let it stroll

confetti please
regrets are on the repository
version lay-named TALK is only a hey away
three –
the slate’s clean
two –
sss .. ssss .. stutter is so last year
one –
you’ve got ashes greeting daybreak

one two three -
another pixel lost.

ATM

on 40 rupees
but that was yesterday
today my wallet’s poorer
by 20
and i’m still at ease

got drunk, took a cab, to go fetch money to pay the bill at the local bhatti
not the smartest thing i’ve done since going to ma ku ney’s and mistaking his living room for an easel
to do my best graffiti
the atm was not my friend, not anymore
the cab’s fare was adding up to a number that i had never seen before

“473.60 rupees!”, he demanded

“man .. but the atm’s not my friend anymore”, i confided

“473.60 rupees!!”, he repeated
almost violently this time

there is something, there always is, i thought to myself
“do you take phone cards?”
with a tone to put his enterprise at fault if he didn’t

“what??”

“do you take recharge cards, you know, like namaste mobile?”
“i have an unused 500 rupees one, my only asset”, i said

“give it to me and get out of my damn cab!”
he was being friendly considering the look on his face

“thanks mr, you are kind”

as i tread the darkness that is kathmandu nights
and hear the ghantaghar strike 1
from kamalpokhari now
i realize
i’ve lost another good friend tonight
as the barks grow louder and life just wanes
this lightless city seems withdrawn
from all the hurt it has endured
thanks to all parties concerned

moon shines aloof, rato pool stinks
the homeless looks up to see no home
that’s when i feel the blade, on my back
it is sharp, with a teaser of pain

him: “don’t turn around, do as i say and i’ll let you live!”

i: “ok, but you’re not god, are you? coz i’m already dead.”

him: “wannabe poets! i’m freakking tired of y’all – shut up and gimme your damn wallet!”

i: “here man .. but i don’t think it’ll help your cause all that much.”

him: “why?”

i: “coz the ATM’s not my friend anymore.”

them: “shut up and give me your shoes!”

i: “but but that’s my only friend, goes where i go.”

i: “so .. spare my friend, friend?”

him: “wanna live?”

i: “yes.”

him: “off with them then!!”

i: “here you go.”

him: “now get running, and don’t look back until you get to gaushala.”

i: “can’t i just walk – i’ve been drinking ..”

i: “.. and i don’t think drinking and running is a good combo, what do you guys say?”

him: “i agree, but don’t know about jangey there ..”

jangey: “i agree too barulo, let the drunk walk.”

barulo: “ok fine – walk but don’t turn around!”

i: “can’t i just see my robbers? after all ,, .. um, this is my first time.”

i: “and not like the police are going to catch you or anything.”

i: “if i went to the gaushala police station and filed a complaint they’d put me behind bars, i’m sure.”

barulo: “why’d they do that?”

i: “coz to them i’m a drunk, that’s more than reason enough.”

jangey: “he’s right .. haha .. hey drunk dude, you’re right!”

barulo: ‘he’s right but what then after he sees us?”

jangey: “ok how about we let you shake our hands?”

i: “okay, i guess.”

after the handshake
i walk barefoot towards gaushala
and onto the oncoming barks
well
actually
same barks, i should say
just different dogs.

blank

it’s easy
to not have any answers
when the process of elimination
leaves you with ‘other’
when you can skip it
without losing any points that grip it
when you can scratch it
without completely having to match it
when you can fight it
without causing any flood of blood to terrorize it
when you can feel it
smile, but yet not embrace it
when you can kill it
to forever bless it
when you can hide it
so as not to abide by it
when you can dry it
to finally be able to crack it
smash it and trash it
and hand it over to the Sun God
so that He can inflame it
and alas render it disintegrated
only to find
to have the rubble block what you saw yesterday
when you peer through your fingers at midnight

that’s when it gets easier
when you eventually get to the point where
running away you leave it so far behind
you don’t even realize
that there actually was a question in the first place
the content of which now draws nothing but a

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0.1

i’m stuck on a draft
and i can’t say go
emotions are only such a raft
will you still say no
science will always prove
why we tend to look at the time
the priest will always groove
when he hears the bells chime
borders outside of borders
how far do i have to go
wondering where the confluence gets to be
what i will never ever see
everyday’s a hidden meaning
everylife’s a hidden art
what can ever be oh so thrilling
than knowing none of us’ll ever be apart